This song is everything to me right now. Just listen.
I don’t feel bad about feeling “fine”. I do feel fine- it is the end of the world as we know it– This doesn’t mean that my heart is not at the same time breaking for those who are struggling, sick, scared. That’s ALL there too- there is room for all of it. In order for me to walk through this and help others in any/all ways that I am able to, I am choosing this current perspective… today.
“Here is how I spend my days now. I live in a beautiful place. I sleep in a beautiful bed. I eat beautiful food. I go for walks through beautiful places. I care for people deeply. At night my bed is full of love, because I alone am in it. I cry easily, from pain and pleasure, and I don’t apologize for that. In the mornings I step outside and I’m thankful for another day. It took me many years to arrive at such a life.”Ottessa Moshfegh
Things that helped make today a better day
~~Saw my friend AG’s face today, she produced this song and it’s her band, so I was extra inspired to share it, aside from it being one of my new favorites. We did a swap, toilet paper & essential oils for salt and pepper.
~ I baked a paleo vanilla cake with ganache frosting- added orange extract and spices. I have no idea how it will taste, it’s cooling, but I will report back. I had to make a LOT of substitutions as I didn’t have a lot of the ingredients.
~ I bought a bicycle with a basket to tool around my neighborhood.
~ Went for a walk, then a ride around the neighborhood.
~ I went deep in a meditation and self-reiki session to prepare for being the co-reiki practitioner for my friend Kjord’s class tomorrow morning (9AM PST)